Review:This week has pretty much been nothing but stop-less fun . New Heights kick off show was great, and that night listening to Matt Bekker's songs had me realize how much someone meant to me. Joined PULSE SHORELINE STEP TEAM, there was WORLD NIGHT, which btw; the picture is the Lion Dance from world night at our school during lunch. Tony Nguyen & Jeff To underneath the gold lion ;D. Love watching their performances. Then that night; world night fashion and my singing performance . If you want to watch it, then just type my name in youtube because you'll pretty much find it. Friday we didn't have school, we kicked it at Alderwood; passed out Light it Up fliers and met a couple of people who are now friends ;]
GIAN ROY & MARVIN CRESPO . Funny guys, and really comfortable to be around with . After that we had the kube dance @ SW. It was pretty fun, but overall weird . & Yes i have my reasons haha . & for today; Camille came over ;] Kontagious rehearsal then performance @ Kent Meridian High. Pretty fun. Headed to the rec, and SURPISE, Gian and Marvin showed up ! haha but yea, the night was pretty dramatic and emotional as well . Which btw for those who witnessed me swearing, and blew up today then i'm really sorry. I hate showing the worst side of me, but most of all i hate taking things out on the people i love as well . but other than that, things are done and over with, it's the end of the day & now it's time to rest .
Thoughts:
I honestly hate watching people i love and care for making wrong choices, and i definitely hate being upset at them as well. I know i can over react but I apologize . I always feel shitty when I yell at people, and when i make them feel bad. But ah .
Another thing; I never knew how much i can fall for a person like this again . How can an interest become into a small crush, then into something deeper . Not so deep, but deep enough to irritate yourself because you can't do something about it, or you just choose to not do something about it. Last time i was crazy about a person like this and was so afraid of telling them was through 5th - 7th grade . And now i'm back in that position ? It's funny because I've noticed that I'm pushing others out of my mind, or anyone that approaches me out of my way just for that single person to notice me? I mean sure i could have chose so and so, this or that person, but there's only one guy im interested in . I should tell him, but still afraid to. I'd rather not tell and never hear how they feel, than to tell them; since there's a chance of being disappointed in the end .
ughh i feel you..
ReplyDeletei feel you too girll.
ReplyDeletei push other people out for Allen and he says not to and stuff, but i can't help it.
the only difference is, is that i told him.
it's really hard to risk stuff like this, especially when you know ONE of the options is disappointment in the end. But also, there's the other option. The good one. But you know, if you decide to take the risk, remember that IF there is disappointment, that disappointment will lead you on in life. And you learn from it.
Goodluck Milaine ;]