Happy July :]

It's been a while since i've updated. But what can I say , summer keeps you busy & tired in the end. Ever since my last blog , I've been in downtown with Camille @ my grandma's ;] So err thing has been chill, relaxing in fun. But of course , like every summer for us, theres always drama. & Unfortunately so far this summer me and my dad has started pretty badly, but oh wells it will rub off. All i ask for is a break from home. But home is like a leach on me. Calling continuously and keeping track in everything i do. Ah , ef my life. HAHA . But anyways, other than the drama, the summer so far has also been filled with busing. Shit , we need our license soon . Me & Camille have been wasting our money on the metro , and busing everywhere we go is a pain in the ass. Today is our last day in Downtown :[ , so to wrap up our Downtown week , we're going to Dim Sum with Gma , then hit the pool . Oh yes .

Hm , another thing ? There was something that i was afraid of , and that was being in a relationship for a wrong reason. For wrong needs. I was afraid of being that sex symbol , & that's how i'm always going to be looked upon as. Honestly, relationship scare the living shit out of me. I've been cheated on , played, lied to plenty of times , i've been taken advantage of, and if you ask, i can honestly tell you that i always feel like the girl that no guy will ever put their effort in a relationship with me , or they can't even put their effort on how to ask me out properly . All i've got are phone calls , whispers in my ear , being asked "so is it official?" or just straight up asking me. But then again , that doesn't matter. But i always feel like nothing sweet will happen. Haha whack i know. But any ways , i was getting somewhere. Like i said i was afraid of being in a relationship for a wrong reason. But this relationship seems legit. haha sorry , i didn't know what other word to use, and i'm to lazy to think of a better one. But this relationship feels strong, and I really can't ask for a better one. I'm content with what and who i have. And yesterday was actually one of the best times i got to spend time with him. Full with conversations, and being the girl who loves to talk, and who usually has deep thoughts in mind... I love spending time like that . His choice in our relationship completely made my day. & He has so much respect from me.

Mmmmk , this is a lot for now.
Camille is about to come out of the shower soon , and i still need to take the sheets off this bed , then shower as well .
Happy July :]

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I hate changes .