Whew , just came back from retreat yesterday and it was definitely tiring. Though retreat was tiring, overall it was worth it and every moment was pretty much memorable. I honestly didn't expect camp to move me so much this year. I mean the fact that i've been so distant with God lately... But that's the reason why retreat defintely moved me. I was able to let go of things, able to give myself up to the Lord again. Jaymo's speech and prayers were so powerful that the Holy Spirit was obviously in the room with us. If it's one thing that i love, it's watching people that i care for and love open up to God. I love watching them praise him, cry to him, and everything else. I always pray for the same thing, so hopefully this time it will actually come around. But if not, it's still fine. I mean If i've been waiting for this long, then for sure i can wait longer. God has always been my hope, and always will be my hope.
One of the sermon's was asking us to write down what do we want God to do for us.
So I wrote to build confidence in myself about the future. I always feel like I'll fail in the end. That i won't be able to make myself or my family proud. That I'll follow their foot steps, when I've promised that I wouldn't.
I also wrote that I won't have so much doubt, and negative thoughts about myself. I always feel like i'll be neglected from everyone. That i'll always end up isolating myself, and that in the end, i'll be left alone. I always feel like the girl who'll only be hurt in the end. Foolish thought I know. But that's why I pray I about it.
Ah , retreat was great. I love everyone at our youth group. After hearing their stories, watching them praise, and everything else... You can really get to know them instantly. & See them differently. A better way :]
Random Thought / Message :
God is Love.
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I want my laptop back :[
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